Religion

Let’s say one day BANGGGG!

Something incredible occures in one instant : everything related to religion and spirituality disapears and everybody forgets all they know about it!
Even the words related to religion disappear.
No more “Buddha”, “Jesus”, “Mohamet” in the dictionary or in history books. There are no more sacred books either and nobody will remember they even existed. There is nothing left related to religion!

Now, what happens?

Did Reality change because of this event?
Did the Truth change?
Did “God” change?

Would it still be possible for any human to be truly spiritual?
Would it still be possible to reach the Ultimate state, “God” or call That as you want?

My opinion is that without those words and concepts (Jesus, the Koran, churches, heaven, etc.) everything would be the same.
Except maybe there would be way less wars in this world.

Word are just words.

The Truth will always stay the Truth, whatever happens.

(Good) Morning?

Wow.

Double wow. (wow)

I’ve woken up with a smile today (first time in years).
As a sufferer of Chronic Depression since I was 12, I’ve become quite good friends with Insomnia.
My usual nights pattern is falling asleep (eventually) but constantly waking up every couple of hours. This does no good being a shift worker of incredibly silly shift patterns.

However, yesterday was my third day on these new tablets (5HTP). I increased the dosage from 50mg to 100mg safely knowing that my body could handle the possible side effects. These aren’t sleeping pills at all but are said to aid/promote a good night’s sleep. Well the first two nights they sent me off dozing but I still kept waking up. Last night, I woke up once, but strangely enough went straight back to sleep. I’ve woken feeling that I’ve actually been to sleep for once rather than having a granny nap. It’s too early to say if it’s down to the new pills I guess, but time will surely tell.

This is the thing with social media and depression stories/blogs.
What I mean is, so many people who suffer from a mental illness will blog about their battles and experiences like no tomorrow. Yet, what I’ve noticed from my research, once some people are on the right medication(s) they no longer blog about their good days so much. Why do some only concentrate on their bad days? Maybe this is the fault of the mental illness? Maybe it’s because these people are not used to good days so much anymore that blogging about it is the last thing on their mind? Maybe some people do not experience good days at all? So many questions because every person is different, just like every mental illness is different. You can not categorise people with depression. I shall try to blog all my experiences as much as possible whether it be good or bad.
I’ll end this blog entry by saying:
I’ve been in the clutches of depression for over 15 years now, if I can get this far still dragging it along like a ball and chain then so can you. Not saying it’s easy or pleasant, it’s far far from that.  Just trying to say, don’t give up on yourself.

You can not have a rainbow without first having the storm.

Thanks for your precious time reading my blog, signed which much love and respect to all. Becci Douglas

Introduction

Well, Hello to the world of blogging.

Who am I?

Well, that’s quite a difficult question to be honest.

But then it’s my first blog so I’ll keep it pretty simple for now.

I’m just a 30 something girl from the South of England.

A mundane full time job that bores the tits off me.

A nice family home, minus the little adults but full of little fury kids instead.

Why have I started a blog?

Ummmm, something to do.
A place to let of steam. A place to put all my deep, dark, scary thoughts maybe.

I doubt anyone would be interested in my little world of utter, dribble and craziness, but that doesn’t matter, I’m doing this for myself.

That’s me.